Clarifying Post Script Incoming:
It was New Year’s Day. Wednesday morning. All the company had left the day before. The house was quiet. Max and I had just returned from work. I sat down to write to you because I hadn’t really had a chance to in the days before that. Suddenly, I was overcome with sadness. I can’t describe it any other way than just complete and utter desolation. It was the beginning of a New Year. I hadn’t talked to you since November 21. I felt this hopelessness I haven’t felt before. I’ve been sad but not hopeless. You were lost to me. I’ve been looking for you everywhere and I can’t find you anywhere and I don’t think I ever will and the reality of that was too much.
I hope wherever you are and whatever you’re doing right now in this moment, you know in some tiny corner of your being that I’m over here thinking about you and sending you all the goodness I have inside me.
I hope it will be enough.